by Jeanette R. Harrison, MPH
In fact, being grateful for my writing skills is what motivated me to write today. I have been really struggling with finding the words or knowing what to say. I realized I should write about what I talk about every day. What is a really important part of my life? That is gratitude.
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The second part of today's gratitude practice is harder for me. It's to change the way you feel about money. I don't know about you, but I have a lot of limiting beliefs about money. From the time I was a toddler until I was eight years old, I was in and out of foster homes. That constant instability was challenging because it never gave me a real sense of belonging. It's hard to explain how it feels when someone says, "You can be here, but you aren't really a part of our lives."
The other part of living in foster homes is that you don't have a sense of ownership or possession of anything or that you deserve anything. Nothing was "mine." It wasn't my room forever. It was someone else's home. Someone else's room. I didn't have a sense of attachment to anything because there was really nothing to attach to. In the midst of all of that, I developed limiting beliefs about what I did and did not deserve, including money. I know I'm not alone in having limiting beliefs about money. A lot of people have the same issue.
A sure fire way to make my blood pressure sky rocket is for me to start worrying about my bills. I do worry about it a lot. Ever since I started my life over and started a business, I think I wake up worrying about money, and I go to bed worrying about money. I pray about it. I manifest about it. I put a lot of negative energy into my belief that I have a lack of money. Even as I'm writing this, I am starting to give myself a stomach ache. I am so worried I won't have enough money for whatever it is that I need. Not want -- need.
Today's gratitude practice is to teach me—and you—to have good feelings about money. It's a huge challenge to change that mindset, to change the limiting belief that I don't deserve it, I can't have it, or it's something for other people to have but not me.
To change the way I view money, I have to show how grateful I am for the money I have had in my life. I have to believe I am worthy of having money and as Sonia Ricotti teaches, that "money flows to me freely, easily, and from everywhere." I don't feel like it does. To start the night's gratitude practice, I am supposed to find ten bills that I haven't paid, which should be easy, and say, "Thank you for the money." Then, I am supposed to believe -- or have faith -- that I will have the money to pay those ten bills. That's the hard part. I always feel like I live in a life of lack. Changing from a lack to an abundance mindset is challenging for me -- especially when it comes to money.
Once I have practiced having faith that I have money, then I am supposed to show gratitude for the money I have received. I will say, "Thank you, paid" for all the bills I have paid in the past. Because money became available for the bills to be paid.
Right before I turn off the light, I take a rock in my hand that has the word "inspire" on it. I say thank you, thank you, thank you for the thing I am most grateful for. Then, I kiss the rock, turn out the light, lay down in my comfortable bed, and start my nighttime meditation.
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